i'm going to make use of livejournal's friend only entry from now.
so yep drop me a comment if anything. ;)

exams are over . like finally ugh. weirdly enough, the only time when i couldn't sleep this whole exam period was last night. i can't decide if i was stressed (seeing that i only attended 3 lectures for this sem for this stupid course ugh) or if it was the few spoonfuls of coffee i stole cause i felt like having some, or if its because of that ache somewhere deep down where i just can't place a finger to.
maybe, its just a combination of all 3. but it was a good two hours, trying to read my notes, watching the rain fall and watching the stupid sky get bright  knowing that i should be asleep sigh heh and probably pouring it all out to God.

and i know that though the future's uncertain, and sometimes the things you feel just seem to all point one direction. I'll continue to trust God, cause this times i don't want any more mistakes, especially not with this. like thong said, look back at God's faithfulness, and walk out into the uncertainity with faith :) so pls remind me of this k haha.

and late last night, God reminded me of this through the qt.

"Friendships based on prayer and love will result in growth and maturity. If we place everything in God's hands, He will work through us in mighty ways. And one of the greatest ways to see God work is through our friendships."

:) exam free days are finally here!
 

:) :) :) :)
because SPCH 2205 is over, SPCH 2204 paper is over and physiology is finally finally out of my life. 
because today I got to spend time with the people who matter.
and because i know the next two weeks are going to be great
hehe its gonna be a good day ahead
weekends always always are :)
and here's one for you :) if you're reading.
i hope you're having a good a day as i am.

because some friends stay no matter what happens
and some friends you know you can entrust your life and your heart to them when you don't trust yourself with it
and some friends know you in and out, and yet still stand by you in spite of what the world says and friends who stay by you when the tears are flowing down, and when some things just seem to hurt so much.  
thank you to all who have been there for me, when the world seemed to be so gloomy
special thanks to those who have shown me that proximity is not everything. even if we're 10 steps from each other, or many many zones apart in different areas, we'll always always there.

    

                   

this just sucks
because everything that happens just seems to add more to it.
but we're all going to keep each other sane together.
because just because we know sisterhood never dies :)

"because He lives
I can face tmr
because He lives
all fear is gone
because I know, I know
He holds the future
and life is worth the living
just because He lives"

livejournal says "last updated entry 16 hrs ago"
its been a long and very draining 16 hrs
right now i just want to crawl into my bed
and hide in my cave with the people who matter
thank you to the many yous for understanding :)
i love yous.

its been a very interesting semester , so many things have happened of ups and downs of staying strong together, of holding on and of knowing that in life you only need these number of people to pull you through. thank you thank you to all who have been there for me. for listening when i needed to rant, for giving space when i needed it, for not giving up on me, for spicing up the weekends and for being my shoulder to lean on when i needed it.


thank you for always being there and when i say always, it just means always, period. for our $3.50 bottles of coke at 7-11, for knowing when i needed to cry and let it out, for calling me when you knew i wasn't there, for being the rare one who can read me without me having to say a word.for walking with me through the ups and downs for the past many many years, and still not giving up on me, thank you :)

thank you for all the times you understood why i had to do certain things, even though everyone else couldn't. and for learning with me as we see that at the end of the day, its us and the significance of "screw you" that keeps us sane. for standing with me knowing that this world isn't exactly the most simple world to be in. thank you for standing up for me all the time,for teaching me to believe in things when sometimes it seems simpler to just give up.thank you.

thank you so much for always sacrificing to make me happy, for believing in things when i stopped. for the many many many happy memories together, for all the efforts you've put in, for all the laughters, all they silly moments and for being there when i was grumpy and upset and depressed. thank you. i'm sorry for all i did, and i really really hope you'll be happier soon,and know that you'll always have a place in my heart.

thank you for all the times you were my pillar of strength. for keeping me strong when everything else seemed to crumble ard me. for believing in me, when i stopped believing in myself. for finding me, when i didn't know where to go, and for being honest , very honest at the risk of everything. thank you.

thank you for encouraging me and cheering me on, regardless of the time we've spend together this period. for not giving up on this friendship, even when things hurt. for being honest and open even when times got tough. for understanding and for putting this above other things, thank you.

thank you and you and you and you for trusting us even when everyone else doubts. for saying that its going to be ok, even when others didn't thought so. thank you so much for that :)



and I know that God's purposes and plans are higher than mine, and I pray that i will learn to follow Him and what He has instead of things that i want. because at this point, the cross roads seem to be looming ahead, and decisions have to be made. and its probably harder when people's emotions are involved. but for now pls keep me in prayer thank you :)

 this is so frustrating.

i am in an excessively happy mood tonight. so much that i can't pass the chance of blogging it so that on days when i'm down and out, i'll remember that i still have a life at times. honestly i have no idea why i'm happy( a better word for it would be joyful :) ) haha but i'll try though

i'm joyful/happy because

after eons and eons of searching, we finally got a gigantic monster ass of a size washing machine :)

we finally found a good cheap and big tv :) here comes the nights of me against the PS for puzzle fighter haha :)

the weather's been cool and great and waking up at 645 allows me to see the sunset on the brisbane river :)

amanda and i donated blood today, and it always makes me feel that little bit happier walking out of the van :)

God has blessed me with a wonderful group of speechies to make life bearable with a 5 day 8am week :)

the fridge is icey cold which means i got to make my first honey milk tea ice blended in brisbane (which sucked to be honest i need you here kane haha ) :)

i've finally finished sending out all the gazillion of emails that i was procrastinating to send out and now its done :)

netball is starting soon again, its back to the game i love :)

i've got many many new songs in my itunes and i'm blasting them on my speakers :)

and finally to make my happy night happier

i've decided to put the m&ms bottle into use again, so here's to many nights of picking out m&ms :)
though i would really be a tad happier if it was fully filled haha.

two words. its simple
Praise God! :)



most of all just looking at him smile
makes my heart smile too :) 

its tuesday night, and it feels weird not having to cheer the mix team on, to warm up for our own game, to fight with the opponents, and to come together for a laugh after that. i'm missing the podders. the game i love with the people i love. what a wonderful sem its been :)